Gloomy Thursday

this is second time we arguing for this week. but this time, i felt so depressed & upset.

when u are searching for someone u love, but he's not there, how did u feel? finally u found him, suddenly he scold u, again how did u feel? i'm totally down with this situation..

while searching for him, my heart keeps asking, where is he? what is he doing? is there anything bad happened to him? i kept calling & sms'ing, but no answer at all.

until one time, he answered with steady voice & said he was sleeping just now. and guess what i said? i said he's bluffing. because of the voice itself made me distrusted this fellow. & suddenly he seems like to argue because of that statement. he said he is not feeling well, yeah i know that. but even you're not feeling well, u can just went out shopping with your mom yesterday. so i thought it's not a crime if you are going out while u are not feeling well.

then like usual, i just keep my mouth shut. nothing important to argue about. maybe it's my mistake for accusing him lying. but, it is not the way to teach me by scolding. i hate it. that's why i kept silent. & just hang up the phone. & make it unreachable.

ok. i'll be going away today. don't know if i ever would meet him again. or maybe i'll gone forever... assalamualaikum